Living and Learning

As promised, I said I would try to write blogs more often…every day if I can manage it or at least every week. Today was an interesting day at work, lots of learning going on. First, I had a long discussion with the graphic artist/designer who will be designing the layout for my next and possibly last feature article before the baby comes. It is a cooking feature and I am thankful that I have had some wonderful help on this. Two people from our office helped with all the preparation and cooking (they are Okinawan so it was a great help to have someone who actually knew and practiced cooking Okinawan dishes) and our artist who did a lot of the food styling and laying out for the photo shoot and of course our photographer! I would have been so lost had I not had such wonderful help. Anyway, we were discussing my article and I realized I learn so much when working with a team. Each person has something great to contribute and teaches me in so many ways. I think this article will be awesome.

Later, in the afternoon we had a training session in photography and learned about how to use our camera with manual settings and what many of those settings mean. It was very interesting because I can’t say I have ever shot on manual settings except in college for journalism and I wasn’t very good at it. I learned a lot and I feel like I’d be more confident taking pictures and trying new things to get a decent picture rather than sticking with auto mode all the time.

Lastly, I have learned so many baby things in the past few weeks. It’s a challenge to decide what we will need in the first six months because we will be PCS ing back to the States and don’t need everything here that early. All of the big furniture, cribs, dressers, high chairs will all go to Mom’s or wait to be bought until we get home. The necessities like the stroller, car seat, pack and play and bassinet with all come to our house here…I mean the bug has to sleep somewhere ;-). Of course, any clothes, bottles, blankets and all will come here so she will be pampered and comfortable. I’m excited and happy that we are able to pamper our little one and spend time with her without me having to go into work every day at least while she is in the first few months of her life.

I’m glad that I’m alive and learning new things each day….pregnancy has been a challenge for me because I haven’t felt great, but I’m excited know our daughter (EEEE!!) will be here in less than 5 months!


Being Brave

For those who know me, I am pretty resilient, pretty strong, very independent. I wouldn’t say that I am brave though. I get very nervous when I have to step out of my comfort zone (I do it anyway but I think that’s because I’m hard-headed).  In Lejeune (*tear*) I hated staying at the apartment alone, hell I hated staying in my mom’s house alone. It just freaked me out for some reason. I’m learning that in Okinawa I am going to have to learn to be alone more often than not. Richie had overnight duty for the second time in three weeks and I had to sleep alone (I had my Shisha girl, of course.)  I was pretty creeped out by it but then I realized I had to be brave so I went into our room and went to sleep. This morning I opened my eyes and I had survived the night! I also have to learn to be brave when I’m driving. For whatever reason the idea of getting lost here (even though its only 67 miles long) freaks me out. The cell service isn’t great (not that I would know where to tell someone I was if I did call) and I’m not to awesome with directions.

I wrote a while back that getting lost is my biggest fear. I’m starting to realize now that it is more about the unknown. (yes, that is what many people fear, I am no exception).  Once, I let myself explore and experience things I start to love them but it takes a big leap of faith (with my eyes closed) to get there. So far my being brave in 2011 has been great. I got married (best decision ever), I moved to Okinawa with my husband (equally great decision-it would suck being home without him) and I have started exploring the island!  Everything I do by myself, makes me more proud and strong. I know there will be a time when Richie Lee will have to leave me (whether for training or a deployment) and I will have to go out on my own. It’s a scary thought but I think that I can do it. I’m starting to make some really nice friends (including my awesome neighbors!). I have people here that I can count in if I get scared or sad or just plain confused.  My puppy dog is the sweetest thing ever. I love her so much and she loves us right back.  I am learning to be brave.

People say that my writing takes courage and skill. To open myself up like this, to make people feel my emotions through my words.  To me, writing is as easy as breathing. It comes naturally. So maybe if I keep trying, being brave will come naturally too.