Today, our little bug is six weeks young and about to meet her grandma Lala and her Nana for the first time. Honestly I’m getting choked up just thinking about it. I was extremely proud of Richie and I do have our labor, delivery and first weeks sat home by ourselves as a little family unit, but there is something lonely about not having your family and friends to celebrate with you.
I can’t hold it against anyone at home because there is an ocean in between us, but it still hurts my heart that the people we love don’t get to experience getting to know sweet Sophia. Truthfully only two or three of our friends here have met her. I know everyone is busy with their own lives, believe me sometimes I don’t know where the hours in the day go. There’s just a small piece of broken heart that no one came to the hospital to see her and since we’ve been home it’s been extremely quiet as well. I am blessed to have my amazing neighbor and dear friend, Alysha, who comes over (and brings us cupcakes) and visits with Richie, Sophia and I. I love you, girl! I don’t know what I’ll do when we don’t live two feet from each other. I know it seems silly, but I just want to show our baby girl off to the world. She’s amazing and yes, I’m bragging, but it was a long journey through pregnancy with my anxiety. The moment she was born, we cried our eyes out because we did it. With the help of my darling husband and wonderful nursing staff at USNH Okinawa, this beautiful girl was born into this world. She made us parents and I couldn’t be more grateful. I just wish we could have had our loved ones around us.
She’s so perfect that makes up for any loneliness I’ve been feeling. When she wakes up in the morning (or the middle of the night), she calls out to us with little grunts and coos while she kicks her feet until we hear her. She rarely ever cries and often smiles and takes in the world with big, beautiful wide eyes. Sophia even laughed yesterday when Shisha barked. When her Daddy carries her in the Ergo, she snuggles up against his chest and sleeps like it was a bed made just for her.
Even though she is so young, she holds her head up really well and even tries to roll over (she doesn’t have it just yet). She’s started sleeping through the night for about six or seven hours. I hope this lasts because Momma needs some
beauty sanity sleep. In the evenings, she nurses while we cuddle on the couch until she is sleeping contently. When she is deeply asleep, we can lay her in her little bassinet (right next to my bed). I swaddle her legs in a little swaddler because she tends to kick and wake herself up. I couldn’t believe that last night I actually slept for six hours straight for the first time in forever.
During the day we play on the activity mat, sing songs and walk around looking in the mirrors at the house. Sophia is exclusively breastfed, so we spend a lot of time nursing and snuggling. At first it was really tough (read: painful) and I felt like giving up, but I’m glad I stuck it out. I just need to get myself in the habit of pumping milk so I can have some on hand if Sophia stays with Mom or if Richie wants to feed her.
Sophia likes to rock and nap in her swing. when she is awake she stares at the tiny blue and green lambs that dance over her head. When she sleeps, she seems so peaceful I want to wake her up and hug her tightly, but I know baby bugs need their sleep. Plus, Momma needs to do her homework and catch up on her blog sometime. I just love the way she smiles and snuggles with me.
I just can’t wait the next few hours are going to drag by so slowly, until we can go pick up my Mom and Nana.